Journal-6 FOMO hits again.

Date: 03.01.2021

Day: Sunday

“Hey y’all! It’s 2021. My first diary entry of the year. I don’t really know where to start from. This is basically the extension of the previous one. So, here goes. I feel like these days I’ve been focusing much on the anti-positive part of my life. It’s not that I have negativity in my life, but I happened to switch the smallest insignificant incident into a gloom-ridden one. Lemme get to the point. FOMO. That’s what we’re talking about…AGAIN. Someone posts something and I get super annoyed and upset easily. Why? How did I turn into this kind of person? I did not have this problem last year. Never thought I’ll be saying this, but I low-key miss 2020. That was one year which taught me a lot of things and helped me discover my interests and personality. Why am I experiencing FOMO all of a sudden? This is what 2020 has been preparing me for. I was constructed mentally to face challenges of the coming years. 2020 has taught me to be tough, how to make decisions not based on emotions. Now I’m just feeling unworthy. Plus my stomach issue doesn’t make my FOMO any better. I’ve also become a bit more of a paranoid than I was. See! This is how my brain thinks all day now. I keep stressing on the negatives. No, this is not me. I am an optimistic person. I am a spiritual being. I am supposed to see the positives of my life. It’s absolutely nonsensical to just live reckoning about what others are doing with their lives. I should switch the limelight to finer patches of my life and not give a damn about what others are posting. Another thing that I am glad for is that even the internet influencers, whose podcasts I listen to, are enduring through the same hell as I am. Not that I’m glad that they are agonizing, I’m just a bit relieved that I am not the only one with this issue. Something makes me assume that it’s only with the Gen-Z, though I know that it’s quite human to undergo this temporary distressful phase of life. Sigh. That’s all for now, I guess. My classes restart tomorrow. Wish me luck. So, bye for now :)”