Journal-11 1 year anniversary

Date: 12.03.2021

Day: Friday

” Y’all. There’s like so much I wanna share with you guys today. I honestly don’t know where to start from. Let’s start from the fact that I’m travelling tomorrow…again. That’s right. It’s all packing up again, baby. So what I intend to convey is that lately (I mean since yesterday) I’ve been getting this vibe that my life is unstable right now. Like I am not settled anywhere. Not just physically, my mind keeps wandering about in wilderness now. Bruh, I just flew from Bahrain two months back and now we’re again packing up and going? Ugh. The moment I find comfort at a place, it’s time to pack up and leave. Totally feel like nomads ngl (though nomads settle when they find a comfortable place. so I guess the “nomad” reference wasn’t what I was looking for). So, anyway, this was one of the things I wanted to talk about. Instability in life. Feels like I don’t have my own space. Whatever. If this is what life has got to offer me, then I will gladly accept it. *wink* 

And also, guess what tomorrow is? Hint: check the date of my first diary entry. Yaaass… can’t believe it’s been a year since I’ve started this therapy kinda hobby. Good for me. Compared to first and present one I’m writing, I indeed noticed a massive shift in the way I express myself through words. And I mean a positive change. I am evolving. My mind-set, my perceptions of life and the way I accept people’s comments, judgements about me, just everything in general has positively progressed. And I am so grateful for that growth. Like honestly, thank you, Universe for all the struggles and hard times that I’ve got to experience. It definitely shaped the person that I am now, though I am well aware that I have a long way to go and haven’t reached my peak yet. Sigh. So, in short, tomorrow (which is the same day I had started this diary) is the day I am going back to where it all started. The place that unearthed the spirituality in me, which I will always be grateful for. So, let’s wait and see what the universe has in store for.”

P.S. I had planned to write this down tomorrow since tomorrow is the “anniversary”. But I kinda felt like I won’t get the time or space to write and talk with y’all tomorrow. Hence, I dropped in a day early. Also, I noticed that this writing of today is bit different than the rest. Especially, the wink, lol. I’ve planned to go full-swing on my studies next week since I will be (hopefully) free from human interruptions. So, I decided to relax today, stress less about the exams and write this down. Lmao, this post scriptum turned out to be another diary snippet. I got a bit chatty today. I just can’t seem to stop typing now. I think it’s because it has been a really long time since I’ve come here to with a free mind. Sigh. So I guess that’s all I’ve got for you today. Completely updated y’all on my feelings. Okays, BFN.

P.P.S. Why TF am I so oblivious to the fact that my exams are due in exactly two damn weeks?!