Journal-64 Unspoken love.

Date: 12.03.2022

Day: Saturday

“I realized I’m in love with you. Too soon to be in love? Maybe. But there ain’t no timer set to fall into depths of love. It’s purely beyond our control, mine and yours. Past failures scarred me so much that I tremble to convey this to you. Despite you knowing my vulnerable side, I fear that you might push me away farther back into pits of my trauma. I love you. It’s as simple as that, unless you make it complicated. Simple love is what I am seeking. And if you are incapable of that simplicity, then let us not, rather I, not get caught up in this wishful thinking. None till date managed to get me open up about my wounds and scars of my soul. None but you. Yet despite knowing all this, you accepted me for who I am. I love you. I cannot halt myself from saying it again. For I will repeat it, till my yearning for you is satisfied. But that won’t be any day soon, for I am insatiable with you. Started off with lust with you. Now, it’s you. Raw you. Pure you. Not the sexual aspect, but the nascent version of your personality. This is who I am in love with. Never have I felt comfortable in another man’s arms. Never until I found you. Or rather, until you found me, from the deepest drench I was buried in. You showed me that humans exist who are capable of both love and lust. And this is what I was looking for in a man. Long awaited days are bygone, for now I have found the treasure I was seeking in the desert of despair. I love you. Oh, I cannot emphasis enough on this statement. For words, mere words are disabled to letter out my feelings for you.
Don’t worry if you think I’ll be disappointed if you don’t love me back. You took me when I was at my lowest point in life, and that’s enough to fulfill my barren soul. My love for you know no bounds nor limits. Trust me when I say I haven’t felt safe with anyone except you. And this is why I am in love with you. Right now, you may or may not know this. I assume that my words make my feelings explicit.
I do love you, like I have loved no other.”