Category: 2021
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Journal-61 Letting go
Date: 30.12.2021 Day: Thursday “Or perhaps letting go of you wasn’t as hard as I thought it would be. I just had to force myself to shift my focus to other things in life. Focus on other people. Convince myself that my world no longer revolves around you, like it used to.”
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Journal-60 Lost you forever.
Date: 27.12.2021 Day: Monday “Feels like I permanently lost someone who was never mine in the first place. But yeah, at least I did the right thing though it’s not what my heart desires.”
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Journal-59 Social media=depression?
Date: 23.12.2021 Day: Thursday “Okay this is weird. And it’s really killing me inside. Earlier, I did say that I loathe people. I despise humans. I need alone time, me time. I need to focus on me. Humans make me fucking depressed. Blah blah blah… and now, everyone’s busy with Christmas. And yeah, so am…
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Journal-58 A blessed Christmas
Date: 22.12.2021 Day: Wednesday “Fam’s here for Christmas. And honestly, I never thought I’d find myself to be happy around my homies during the festive season. No offence lol, but I’m more inclined to my friends, which is weird cause I ain’t no social person. Anyway. This year I’m genuinely blooming with ecstasy to be…
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Journal-57 It is what it is.
Date:16.12.2021 Day: Thursday “Today I choose to be depressed. I choose to see the dark side of life. I choose not to be happy today. Why? Because being happy requires energy. It doesn’t and never comes naturally to me. And right now, I lack that sort of energy to be cheerful. I am mentally drained.…
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Journal-56 Where’s the pause button?
Date: 13.12.2021 Day: Monday “I’m overwhelmed. There’s a roller coaster of mixed feelings just gushing through. I feel lost. I feel confused. Where am I heading to? Why this rush? What’s the hurry in life? Can we just press brakes for a moment and analyse our lives? Like honestly, wtf are we doing here? Why…
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Journal-55 Depression ain’t no joke
Date: 08.12.2021 Day: Wednesday “Depression gets worse when you’re with people, like when there’s a lot of humans around you. Cause you gotta pretend all the time that you’ve got your shit together. They say depression gets alleviated when you are surrounded by people. Nah dude, you are forced to put on a fake smile…
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Journal-52 Why is my ex still in my mind?
Date: 20.12.2021 Day: Monday ” Kinda feel like it’s time to end it all. Just need some quality time to myself now. No humans around. Just me. Today, I was in the backseat of my car when it occurred to me: though I am low-key in a relationship now, I don’t actually love the person…
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Journal-51 Nostalgia hits me
Date: 13.12.2021 Day: Monday “Wow, first one of Christmas month. Okay, lol that’s not what I came to talk about. I wanna spill my emotions today. Just ramble on whatever’s been eating me inside. So just bear with me here, like y’all always do lol. Let me paint you a picture of a recent incident…
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Journal-50 New probs!
Date: 27.11.2021 Day: Sunday “New probs, people! Well, apparently this is what life is. Old problems replaced by new ones. Sigh. The intensity of your current issues fades out once you’re faced with newer ones to worry about. Makes sense? I do hope so. Anyway, so I had taken up Snapchat last week. And you…
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