Journal-109 It’s okay to relapse.
Date: 16.11.2022 Day: Wednesday Self-pep talk. Listen. “I know you’ve been trying to eat healthy for the past one week. Not restricting, but eating everything in the right amount. In short, you did not over fill your tummy. You stopped when you were full. And making sure you didn’t let yourself starve gave a red…
Journal- 108 Roles have reversed.
Date: 15.11.2022 Day: Tuesday “Okay, hear me out. I’m fucking overwhelmed rn. I thought this whole social media break was supposed to do me good. I thought taking a break from constantly texting Mr. CG was supposed to help me focus on studies. Boy, could I be MORE wrong about this? I do keep consistently…
Journal- 107 Body image.
Date: 27.11.2022 Day: Sunday “Can I go into an exile from this goddamned land and never return? Can I just put on an invisible cloak and not exist here anymore? Is there any way of refraining other humans from seeing me? Cause that’s how worse my body dysmorphia has gotten. I’m sorry that I don’t…
Journal- 106 Jump off the tower! Your Prince ain’t gonna come.
Date: 12.11.2022 Day: Saturday “What am I doing here again? Yeah well, I’ve been thinking (as usual) about the whole Mr. AJ aka ‘the guy who ghosted me’ situation last year. Remember how he murderously ghosted me and I was heart fucking broken and I caved into binge eating for comfort and that worsened and…
Journal-105 Social media hiatus.
Date: 12.11.2022 Day: Saturday “It’s been almost a week since I’ve deleted instagram and snapchat off my phone. Say whaaa? You heard it just right. Lol I remember last year how I used to vent over here cause my mommy never let me have an instagram account. Remember how much of a FOMO I used…
Journal-104 Ghosting the ghoster.
Date: 27.10 2022 Day: Thursday “Been an entire week of constantly jamming to Taylor’s Midnights album. Chances are high that this could replace my top favourite Taylor album. We’ll see how long this obsession is gonna last now lol. So what’s new in this hottie’s life? For starters, life’s hectic af. Like really hectic and…
Date: 09.10.2022 Day: Sunday ” God! Mood swings can be so fucking random huh! One moment life’s all sunshine and smiles till your mood just drops down the gloomy slope the next moment. Like why?! What tf did I do to deserve this random out-of-the-blue change in my mood? Ugh!”
Journal-102 TW: life’s scary.
Date: 05.10.2022 Day: Wednesday “I really need to get some things off my chest rn. First of all, depression. All these months, till my mom had arrived here, I was facing an active version of depression. Lemme make it clear. I used to incessantly pour out in class, I used to cry out on my…
Journal-101 Internal monologue.
Date: 04.10.2022 Day: Tuesday ” “Why are you always gloomy there, eh?” “I’m not gloomy, I just don’t have a reason to be happy in life.” This has been my constant internal monologues these days.”
Journal-100 A twist of feelings?
Date: 03.10.2022 Day: Monday “Weird, cause I popped in here to vent mindlessly about how shitty I feel. Before getting on with my usual venting spree, I decided to play some music in the background. And this time, I went for Krishna’s flute. And boy, trust me when I say that everything shitty I wanted…